I guess every day in every life we face the same question, both about our circumstances and how we react to them. Some days, grumpy-ass customers are funny to me, and sometimes I wish they’d disappear or at least get herpes. Some days my boss is a delight, and some days he’s avoiding a problem he ought to address—this determines, in large part, whether my job feels like a comedy or a tragedy, and also what kind of privacy-blocked shit I write about him on Facebook.
Tuesday and Wednesday were giddy days. Wednesday was fully two weeks since we inseminated, and every moment that Heather didn’t bleed was a triumph. Despite her pledges to ignore her body’s signals—each round, she’s become consumed with breast pains, premature spotting and headaches, and, with each negative, declared that she clearly doesn’t understand what her body is telling her or what it feels like to be pregnant—Heather Googled the burning pains in her breasts and the strange pains in her ribs. She called me to tell me she’d thrown up, and it was a moment of delight for both of us. “I’m sorry,” I said, “but I’m so excited!”