Yep, it’s for realsies: Heather knocked me up.
As of today, I am 10 weeks, 6 days, along and everything looks good. The wee one is about the size of a lime, is starting to develop hair, and has a full set of internal organs. He/she has made his/her mama sick and dizzy, and has made both moms very happy.
We checked a bunch. I peed on thin strips and on big plastic sticks, and insisted on a blood test. It was actually a day earlier than we’d planned to test, but it had been a rocky few days, and I’d been so emotional that I had to leave work early to grieve in private. I just felt sure it wasn’t going to happen. When Heather got home, we snuggled up in bed while the tests processed, trying to remind ourselves that we loved each other and would be okay no matter what. Then she walked into the bathroom, turned to me, and said, “Rachel, you’re fucking pregnant.”
It took a while before it felt real, and we have to remind ourselves from time to time. We saw movement on the ultrasound, heard a heartbeat, and have been reassured by symptoms of all types, but… How did this work out? Is the universe really that even-handed? I just don’t know what to do with it. Sleeping and vomiting will have to do for now.
Yay! Congrats! I'm so happy to see this! And it didn't ever really feel real to me even when I was huge and could feel him moving. Wasn't till he was born that it was finally real to me completely. I just always thought something was going to go wrong and we wouldn't be bringing a baby home since it was such a struggle to get pregnant to begin with. I was so used to all the let downs that that's all I expected. But it happened for us and you too! Enjoy it!
ReplyDeleteThanks! We're keeping our fingers crossed, for sure. I'll keep your success in mind if I get antsy.
DeleteI'm so excited for you two! I've been thinking about you a lot, even though I hardly see you. Sending prayers/energy/light/vibes whatever your way that soon you'll be holding your precious baby. Motherhood is an amazing experience! I'm so excited for you both! And I hope you're starting to feel better.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Amy! It's going to be wild! (The morning sickness has been kind of sporadic, but the latest recommendation is great: lemonade and Lays potato chips. Finally something I can get behind:))
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